The Mercenary Within
I have a confession to make. I’ve been a mercenary.
I took a job because it’s what I thought I should do. Not because it felt right at my core level. Have you ever done this with an important life decision?
Not living according to your truths is akin to being a mercenary whose allegiance is to the highest bidder.
The Power of Rationalizations
My ability to reason and rationalize away the truth was surprisingly powerful. “It doesn’t really make a difference” or “I can’t change now” , “What would I tell my friends and family?”, “It would change everything”, ” I have too much to lose”, “But the benefits and perks are so good. I’d be stupid to give that up.”
And the worst part, wrapping it up in a box that is sealed as tightly as possible- marked as “Do Not Open” and putting in a closet in hopes of forgetting about it. I call that living in the danger zone.
The sad truth is, no matter how many rationalizations I created or how tightly I sealed the box, the truth wanted to get out. After enough time it found ways to get my attention. Anxiety, unhappiness and disengagement became companions. I did my best to not see or hear it. But like the effects of rust on the most powerful of ships, denial does not make it go away.
Living From Your Head
What’s the difference between living from your head and living from your core? First of all, living from your core takes courage. You do things because you need to, regardless of payment, outcome or what others might think. You have to do them.
Living from your head assures you a good and safe life – nothing wrong with that. But don’t deceive yourself, it will not lead to your greatest potential.
Your Law Office
In all of life’s important relationships, especially to the law office, where so much of our time and energy goes, we run the greatest risk of operating like a mercenary. We make decisions based on efficiency, profit margin, productivity and what a law office “should be”. While those are all important factors, they fall far short of the ultimate potential that rests within every practice of law.
Like all good things, with habitude it becomes second nature. Core decisions and understandings come from your epicenter. Operating from this place is how to avoid waking up years later to find yourself living part of your life as a mercenary.
At the end of the day, month, year or life – honoring who you truly are is the best life. Are there ways that you’ve made mercenary decisions in your office? Imagine how it would feel running your office, and your life, from what resonates deep inside of you? Let me know in the comments below.